"Cause what you say is what you say, say what you say "

"Cause what you say is what you say, say what you say how you say it whenever you sayin it, just remember how you said it when you were sprayin it So who you playin with huh.. huh.. huh.. huh? "

so, just felt like quoting that. I speak blonde, and every other mistaken language. I always get what people are saying, like " hot pink green" its not a mix, it just means hot green or lime green. I finally got threw the day w/o thinking of you, until I saw the word buffalo, and thought of how 8 hrs changed my life and made me cry for 4 weeks straight. im not easy to cry but I felt betrayed. I think by now we know my thoughts on reality, and how I am addicted to this screen, watching your every move on here. But it finally got better, my mental health break from those stupid gay ass boreds finally worked. But a new series of dreams arose, but I rather have them then the greatest level of insomnia. Am finally sleeping, well a lil more than I was. I have so much to say, but maybe not now b/c im feeling like shit b/c of allergies, im allergic to my dog but I lover her too much! But I find it hard to take my self to seriously, and sometimes others too, but
I find it sad that I do this sometimes. But at the same time I do take it way too serious and I spend a lot of nights worrying ,lying in bed, scared. I worry for people I know, love, and don't know. Like a fear of the unknown too. Like in that book,the very boy, I love that book, its like a symbol and key to everything. Well my advil awaits as it dances with my allegra, waiting for its party crasher to snatch it.




"love can conquer anything, except lack of love" <-------- that explains a lot!