i am karma in the worst form

i want him to hate me not because i ahte him, but becaus ei love him so much. im afraid maybe to much. he is my bestfriend and the nicest person to me. i treat him bady to distance myself from him. but he getshurt in the process, which upsets me deeply. id rather him be mad at me for somthimg i did o purpose then a simple accident/mistake. i hate whe things are out of my hands. i just found out thought that he can never hate a erson, only dislike them and that would only happen ifthey like killed someone probaly. i have big birthday plans for you sunshine, just wait and see, no its not crazy or drastic, just fun. i you "jason"morethan you can know




myheadrestonhislapasifallasleepthinkingofyouprayingnottofeelforhim
xxoo
^ remember