i am karma in the worst form

i want him to hate me not because i ahte him, but becaus ei love him so much. im afraid maybe to much. he is my bestfriend and the nicest person to me. i treat him bady to distance myself from him. but he getshurt in the process, which upsets me deeply. id rather him be mad at me for somthimg i did o purpose then a simple accident/mistake. i hate whe things are out of my hands. i just found out thought that he can never hate a erson, only dislike them and that would only happen ifthey like killed someone probaly. i have big birthday plans for you sunshine, just wait and see, no its not crazy or drastic, just fun. i you "jason"morethan you can know




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xxoo
^ remember

10 reasons why he should understand me, and 10 why u should love me

1. i backed out of kissing you that night because it was the the right situation or how i wanted it to be
2. the secret bond you can only denie for so long
3.how everything you love in other girls is righther in me
4.. we are alike yet completly opposite
5. i try to hate you but cant
6. i rember everything you ever say
7. i love your dad
8. you DO have a cat, im not crazy
9. your eyes match mineand i love you
10. your the only person i know who knew what i ment when i said yezzer, and i really love you



1. i know you better than u know yoursellf
2. i tually do understand almost everything you say/feel, but not everything b/c im not aliar and wont lie to you, only u know 100%
3. we are so alike
4. i dont care if u wear my clothes
5. your eyes are the greatest thing god or whoever created
6.we think exact lines at the same time
7. there is no need to dress up on a rainy afternoon when u watch reruns or lifetime
8. friends never change, yet they are never the same
9. i love you more than u can ever know
10.the thought of you an reduce me to tears, i miss you, comeback to me

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