why do i love you, when i want to hate you so much?

ok, now i have a problem with you. you said people want your number but dont want to have a conversation with you. and they want people to think they know you, but they realy dont want to realy know you. now i dont know if you were talking about your friends or people like fans who " wanna be your friends". but either way, that was fucked up! yeah i got what you ment and were trying to say. But there are some people out there who would love to have an intelectual conversation with you, and would love to hear your opinions and views on things and in general. Maybe even have a little playfull debate, because we all know we love them. And not every one is all like, "oh i only want to talk to him because he is that famous bassist/songwritter/frontman of that realy famous group" some peopl wanna actually have a conversation with you because your "(insert nickname you feel like being called today here), that funny/sweet/cool/geek/ human guy from wilmette". And im sorry you feel the way you do, but if you cant understand this then 've failed at trying to show that some people are human and not all wat some people call "teenie" or "fake" or "star struck" and some people just want to be able to get to know someone because they seem interesting and seem like they could be a good friend or nice person to chat with. but its not lke you give these people a chance to talk with you. because there are a million and one fakes out there, the handful or true and sincere people get denied and have to suffer. and it's like, when people do get your number, its not like they can call because you dont except calls from that number anyway. And do you know how many people would die to see your number on there caller id? Just beuse you seem like a nice, and actually human person. And now, for the messageboardes, there are some people like me who defend you all the time and wont ever stop because i have yur back no matter what. some people just say things because they just want to see your reaction, just ignore it, and sometimes its just because they are jealous, ad sometimes its because they want to piss off those "teenies" which they have a right to even thou it is mean. But you need to not listen to the negitive things because people will always be there to say them.but sometimes they can make you relize things and help yourself. But some one was just saying how you cant ive out a bad moment forever. i said that was true, but sometimes you need to relive it because, you can never forget a moment because it helped build you andshape you and make you who you are. But anyway, so this is my reactoin to your reactions. i know you will never read this, but if by chance you do i had to get this outta my system because it was eating at me all day, i hope you understand this and where i am comming from. k?