To you, the person I will never meet...

Sometimes
sometimes I wanna fall asleep with my clothes on
sometimes I wanna fall asleep in your arms
sometimes just knowing how much u understand me makes me wanna cry b/c I don't deserve you and how much you love me
sometimes just falling asleep next to you is enough
sometimes I feel like passing out in my clothes and sometimes you do too
sometimes you just want to be loved and understood, and loved for who you are
sometimes I do too
sometimes feeling the warmth of your body and being held tight and close in your arms is enough to get me through the night to the awaiting day
sometimes your smile is enough
sometimes your eyes and that look in them melts me
sometimes I feel im such a bad person and don't deserve you b/c you are sweet,loving,caring,and adorable and so hot
but then quickly you remind me im wrong and the only place you belong is on the couch with me in your arms
sometimes before you id cry my self to sleep thinking there was no reason for living and I was a waste and the people I loved that died shouldn't have
sometimes I think it should've been me and not them
they were perfect and had people who loved them and needed them and they didn't deserve that b/c they had a purpose
sometimes I cry
then you quickly remind me ur by my side
sometimes we make references to the future which u know I hate
but sometimes u still do
sometimes I remind you no one knows what tomorrow holds and anything can happen in a split second or minute
then some times you quickly remind me you know, and nothing else matters
sometimes you tell me how much you love me
sometimes you say how much you heart me which you know is my weakness
sometimes the sound of your voice makes me cry b/c I know how much I love it, and you
sometimes when I catch a quick glance of your eyes I go back b/c
sometimes I get lost in your eyes when you have that adorable look on your face and in your eyes
sometimes I get nervous b/c I feel I don't love my family
then sometimes you remind me im breaking down and I need to take a deep breath
sometimes when you say that I take a deep breath and the color comes back you my face
sometimes I just want to hold you and never let go
sometimes I feel if im not clingy I'll lose you
sometimes I feel if I am clingy I will lose you
sometimes you remind me by telling me I could never lose you b/c you love me no matter what
sometimes I need you to tell me how beautiful I am
sometimes I need you to hold me till the tears stop b/c I don't cry and when I do it's big
sometimes I need to wear your clothes just to be silly and show you that
sometimes you clothes are to tight
most time I'm funny
all the time you are
sometimes I think were the same
sometimes I think about before me when you were heart broken and sad and depressed , still funny,happy and alive
sometimes I feel no one understands the true me,but you
sometimes I love your hair and gay smile
sometimes I love you little remarks b/c there almost as good as mine
sometimes I think you should be more conceited
sometimes I think you deserve better
sometimes you think I deserve you and you deserve me
sometimes we agree
sometimes you sa sorry my concious called in sick again
sometimes I say mines been out frequently
sometimes you comment on my ocd
sometimes I say thank you for worrying
sometimes I lovingly say fuck off
sometimes I try to control it
sometimes I have you doing it
sometimes Im phsycotic
sometimes you are to
sometimes u pms
sometimes I guess I do to
sometimes I feel I could keep going forever
sometimes I think I should go to bed before I crack
sometims I feel I need you to survive
sometimes you joke and say I do
sometimes we understand what each others been through and the obsticles and what are lives are like and how we feel
sometimes I wish I was as half a good of writer as you
sometimes I wish this was real
sometimes this is how I feel
sometimes I think if this was real i'd be blessed
sometimes I wish you knew this and felt exactly like this
sometimes I wish I could tell you how much I loved you,I think I love you and
sometimes I whish I realy knew you and who you realy are
and sometimes I wish this was you
sometimes I wish this was in my reach
sometimes I wish this was reality
sometimes I wish reality would never set in
sometimes I whish I wasn't just this girl
sometimes I wish I wasn't just this lonley, not always undrestood girl
sometimes I wish I didn't feel reality chasing me
sometimes I feel reality setting in
sometimes lik now I feel it
sometimes reality just set in
sometimes nothing b/c reality just set in
I am writing for no reason
I have no purpose
u dont know me and this is not real
but the pain is
I feel like crying but wont b/c in this story, wait I lied and now am crying
reality sucks
sometimes Im just a girl
and sometimes a girl can dream
sometimes when a girl dreams it hurts to much when she stops
so you say why stop
b/c if you dont stopyou will die
or if you wait to long to stop the pain will be greater
sometimes like now this girl wil stop writing untill another day
wher I will dream again then be crushed again
but for now I will love you and hate reality b/c in reality none of this happened or ever will
sometimes I fall asleep listening to what you wrote
sometimes I wishi could meet someone as smart and who is the greatest bassist and writer on this planet and
sometimes I fall asleep just like this..........
...then sometimes I wake back up b/c I forgot something
sometimes I fall asleep with the light on b/c I guess it makes me feel safe then
sometimes I fall asleep again untill the next day where I could continue this whole feeling put to paper thing which makes me feel better having my thoughts on paper b/c
sometimes I think if u read this you would feel the way I thought you would
and every thing on these pages would be true and the actual reality
then sometimes I actualy do fall asleep and await for what tommarow brings me just like this............
sometimes I need to write to get this all out and
sometimes I feel if I dont write it I know I will forget it and
sometimes I feel this is very addicting
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